Seemed To Her/Deeply Conflicted
I wanted both of these phrases, seemed to her and deeply conflicted, to be a pair, but not read as one sentence. This piece is about how I see myself. “Seemed To Her” is about how my perception of myself is subjective, biased, and not always accurate. It is also about how my eating disorder totally skews my perception of myself. “Deeply Conflicted” is also about how I see myself too, I feel like I often have conflicted feelings about myself because of my mental illness, and me doing everything I can to be kind to myself and love myself. I chose to take a selfie and put an image of myself right between these two phrases because the way I see myself most is through this mirror, and just to drive home the point that this work is about self-reflection, and maybe that I’m a little vain. This mirror has also been in my room since I was fourteen, so it has been with me through the entirety of my eating disorder and obsession with my weight and how I look.
r/sweatypalms
r/holdmyredbull
r/nextfuckinglevel
r/nextfuckinglevelmoron
There are a lot of similar subreddits, and these four have the kind of videos I want to use in my project. These videos are of people doing reckless stunts and recording it. I personally find these videos so dumb, these people are risking their lives for something meaningless. I was thinking for my project I could take parts of these videos right before they land the stunt, and edit them together. This would hopefully create a strong feeling of unease, and make the viewer feel like their stomach is continually dropping.
This is my final video for this assignment. I decided to do two videos together so they could speak to each other. I tried to pair videos that complemented each other. Personally I think these kind of stunt videos are stupid, and I kind of judge the people taking risks for clout or adrenaline, and I wanted to highlight that in this project. Not all of them are fails, because I wanted to be there some uncertainty to what would happen, like it is when people do these stunts in real life.